Good Grief?

I was just driving down the road the other day, minding my own business. Actually I was hitting the After Christmas Sales. Still, minding my own business, listening to Christmas Songs on the Radio...when it hit me. Grief. I don't remember what sparked it, whether it was the words to the song, or what, but I can remember exactly where I was on the road, when it overtook me.



Loss.


And I had a little conversation with the Lord. That went something like this.
OK, Lord, so I've seen you provide a new wife for my friend, but where's my compensation? (selfish, I know..but I'm being honest, here) I have always wondered loosely, when I read in the Bible that someone lost their family and God gave them a new one, and life was altogether better.

Huh?

How is that possible, I've always thought...you could take my husband and all my children away and give me new ones, but the replacements wouldn't be the same. That is just the way people are. Irreplaceable. So what does God mean? How did Job do it?

And then......a week later......I'm sitting and listening to a new friend share her heart, and I realize................

that's the one.

I don't "get" it all. But I've seen too much-- I know God is good. I just don't always see it right away.